It's crazy to think that it's been a month since I blogged. It's even crazier to think that I've been through staff training, gone to Tennessee and Georgia, and am now back in Colorado urgently awaiting tomorrow's arrival at camp. I really couldn't be more ready.
Crazy how easy it is to deny toxins. To eradicate the harmful things I would put in my body and release in the same way. Even my language makes me feel lighter. It's like I don't have to worry about not being perfect because atleast I know that I'm doing the best I can. It's so easy to say no. And even easier to enjoy the absence of anything like that from my body. It's freeing, really.
I hope this continues. This want to want to be better and this overwhelming joy that so many of my newly close friends live in Norman. I hope this continues. This jubilance that isn't near forced and the stupid smile plastered on my face. I hope this continues.
I've been praying alot lately. Like a freaking ton. For Lexie, for my heart, but mostly for the 10 girls I'll be blessed with. The 10 little hearts that I'll be left with to let God heal and make happy again. Even though I don't feel that I'm ready...God only equipps us with what we can handle.
