Quench my thirst.

It's 10:09 and I'm tired?! There must be something wrong with my clock! Wait...there isn't? Weird. I've had insomnia for almost 3 years, now. Never once have I felt this tired so quickly.

I miss my grandparents. They live a minute away and I haven't seen them in almost 3 weeks..we got in a fight. It's weird. And much different. We've never fought for this long, before.

I wanna be an example. But I'm thirsty. I'm thirsty for the wrong things. For example-right now I am thirsty for tea. Even though I know I shouldn't drink it this late. Ok of course I'm not actually this literal. I'm thirsty for sin. For things that draw me away from the cross. Booooo. I hate living like this. The Lord should quench my thirst...and He does. So what am I doing in this dark place?

I am thirsty, I am thirsty.
I am thirsty or more of You.

Love that song.
Where is my purposeful life? Where did it go? Not little kid Kelsey, little girl Kelsey...who knew only what she was taught in Sunday school. Grown up, relatively matured Kelsey who knows better. She knows not to stick things into light sockets and knows the difference between sin and not sin. Purpose and meaning is all relative. If I'm living for the sin then I'm living for myself. If I'm living for myself-then what happened to my purpose? My promise to give up my life to the One who gave up His, for me.

I'm going to drink some water, now.