Untitled Hymn.

I thought about discontinuing this...just not writing for a day or two, or a week, or a month, and then maybe it would dissolve? But I made this for me-and I will continue this for me.

I want her to heal. God, if there is any prayer worth answering it is for this child. For this 40 year old woman trapped in a 19 year olds body. Someone who should never have had to see what she's seen, manipulate people like she's so good at, and who values herself as worthless...God. It's horrific to see the cuts, the blood, the abuse. I witnessed her using Heroine on skype. What a great way to tell me you shot up, right? Scared out of my mind I toss and turn every night wondering when I'll get that phone call from her mom. The call where I can't understand a word she's saying, but I know what has happened. If she dies...if my broken sister cannot learn how to heal herself? Then I don't know how I'll be able to heal, either.