I am happy. As I lay in color on this white couch, thinking of the opportunities...I am exuberant. Blessed and lifted and okay.
Simultaneously I don't belong. I sit here on this white couch listening to the sound coming from the kitchen. It's almost funny how much I don't belong. My wardrobe, appearance, thoughts, even some of my beliefs are so skewed from there's. I am blessed, but so not comforted.
Well perhaps this discomfort should be welcoming? Yahweh is giving and giving so I can only expect for some of my emotions to be filled with this sense of not belonging to this family. Because let's be honest...I belong to a much bigger Pop anyway. And soon but not soon enough these feeling will eradicate. And sooner than anything else I will be with my best friend...and I find everything great in that.
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