Mmmm

He woke up, today. That is a blessing in itself. The doctor's said he had no brain activity and little to no chance of surviving...and boy did he disprove the hell out of them. The power of pray seems like a stupid phrase but praise God for miracles.

I wrote my Grandpa an e-mail about everything. I sent it about 10 minutes ago. Weary of waiting for a response; wondering if I'll even get one...Mostly just scared, I guess.

Everyone's changing. I don't even know what earthly person to go to. If there even is one. People are changed by other people and that irks me. People make bad decisions everyday. I'm at the top of the 'bad decision club'...but what gets me is when people's characters are shaped by the people they hang out with. I guess the phrase 'you are who your friends are' is really seeming to become true. And that...well that's sad.

I'm sad. I miss her. I miss him. I miss you. I miss old things, old smells, and security. So unhappy with where I am in life. What can I do...where can I go? Only God knows...