My mother and I sit at the dinner table in silence. I have all these thoughts spinning around my mind and all I want to do is yell. Yell at her...for so many things. But the silence stands. I'm mostly just mad at myself, I guess.
Tonight was the last real night of summer. School starts on Thursday, and the idea makes my stomach crawl. I'm just ready to get out of here. Tonight was unexpected...but undoubtadely good. My friend Marisa and I climbed atop our most favorite roof. We just laid on top of the furniture store and I couldn't help but obsess over how blue the sky was. As dumb as it sounds, I felt like I could fly. We did this thing where we stand up, swing our head between our legs, and look up. It feels like you're holding up the entire world.
Later, I had a surprise visit from my ex boyfriend. It was weird. He told me to come outside and I opened the door...and there he was. We talked for a while until Austin, my best friend, came to the rescue. I jumped in his car, and we headed straight for one of my favorite places to be. The place we've gone to for the last 3 nights in a row. We crawled into the back of his truck and marveled at all the stars. I took astronomy last year, and tried to make out the constellations...but all I could see was this indescribable phenomenon. Perhaps, that was an advantage, though. I was okay with not knowing the names of the patterns...as long as they were there for me to look at...nothing mattered. Time stood still.
SHIT.
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