I'll never reach my limits.

Sometimes extraordinary things happen. It's raining so hard and you're okay with that because it means you don't have to cry as hard, because the world is crying for you. Or feeling, seeing, and breathing recovery. Healing, in general. I'm telling ya...sometimes extraordinary things happen.

And some days are ordinary. Like yesterday when I woke up, and did my normal routine. It was ordinary. I got on the computer, and that was usual too, of course. In my mini feed on facebook pops "Gap Year" from my camp director and I felt my heart stop. I clicked on the link and started to read about this beautiful journey. I started crying. Weeping. I called my mom and I told her that I felt CALLED to it more than I've ever felt anything in my life. She told me it wasn't probable...

I mean she was right. I paid for school in full last week...I'm getting a new car next week...and I start class in 2 weeks. But I couldn't not try. I called my grandpa and as much as I thought I could keep it together...I started to fall apart again. I have never wanted anything so much. And he told me something that I wasn't prepared to hear. He told me that if God wanted it to happen...then He would allow for it. I had to hold the phone away from me as I literally fell to my knees. I have never felt so much joy in my life. I had such an encounter with God and once I got off the phone with my grandpa I prayed the hardest I've ever prayed in my life.

Then I e-mailed the director of gap year and tolded him I wanted in. He got back to me in a surprising 2 hours and said they had a last minute spot for me. My prayers have been being answered more phenomenally than I could have ever hoped for. I printed everything out this morning and I'm going to my grandpa's office tonight to talk about it.

September-November we are doing Urban ministries. Alot of internships and I'm so ready for it. Then we have Thanksgiving break and then the first 10 days of December we're going to South America to Peru to Hike up Machu Pechu. We get to end the semester surrounded by beauty that I could never even imagine. Then we have Christmas break and leave January 3rd for Rawanda for 2 months. We get to go on a 5 day rafting trip down the Nile river in Uganda. We also get to go on a gorilla tour and hike up Mt. Kilimanjaro in Tanzania. Then we go to Southeast Asia for 2 months in the Phillipines. We get to help start a camp there. We come back to the U.S. on April 30 and by then I know my heart will be so changed by the Lord. And it makes me cry at the thought of growth I'm about to expirience. I'm praying with every breath that this will be made possible...and with God...anything is. I'll never reach my limits.