People matter.

"You won't be able to fully appreciate the love of others without first learning to love yourself".

5 minutes before it's time for me to take the stage, I find myself heaving in the bathroom finding it hard to breath and choking up too much water. I couldn't do this, I had to focus. I ran out of the bathroom and got to the curtain just in time. The sunglasses helped, though. But it was hard to find which keys to play, it was hard to focus, it was hard to breathe. After the shows over, Behnoosh drives me to my car. She tells me that nothing is worth what it's doing to me and then she left. I got in my car and couldn't see. I didn't even realize I was crying, again. It started off with whimpers and then turned into sobs, and then I couldn't even remember who I was as I was holding my knees to my chest and opening my car door to puke out the rest of the pain until I realized that it didn't help. I was shaking and crying and pounding on my steering wheel. I texted Behnoosh and I told her I couldn't move...because I couldn't. She called me and asked where I was and I told her I was still in the school parking lot and within minutes I saw her pulling into the space next to me.

She pulled me back into the car and listened to me sob.
We sat there talking for what seemed like...forever. She told me that even though she's only known me for 5 months...that she cares about me more than anyone else in this school. I felt better. I felt okay. I know that people come in and out of your life...but I hope she stays.

"Live life how you want. But you must live it."

Thank you, Behnoosh.

People matter. I matter. You matter.